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Hey ma,

 

         Where to start?? I have had my ups and downs lately happy, sad, happy, mad etc.. Sometimes i dont know what direction to go in sometimes i do it really has been a fog lately.. Sometimes it is tough to get up just want to cry myself back to sleep, but ya know i get up put my pants on one leg at a time although sometimes i try 2 legs depends on what i did the night before lol.. You always told me to worry about things in life i can control cause things i cant happen for a reason and i am starting to grasp your words of wisdom.. I quit smokin, got myself goin to the gym really tryin to turn my health around cause as much as i miss u ( more than u will ever know) and u were and still are my bestfriend i am know where ready to come see u.. I know where u are and always will be and that is up with the big guy, and always on my shoulder slappin me in the head if i do somethin stupid.. I am starting to feel your precense u are giving me motivation on the way to becoming a stronger person and ya know u prob wont believe me but i dont nearly drink as much anymore i have found the strength do deal with certain things and not have to drink myself to a stupor just to be happy... Sometimes like i said i just dont know what to do or where to turn but now i always say to myself what would mom do or what would mom tell me, and it works... Even though i will never get over the fact that u are gone and i still have so much anger, and bad thoughts i have learned to channel them and  not go out and punch somebodys head in.. It is time for me to grow up to the man that u always envisioned me being, and it is finally comin.. There is not much more in life that i need, I got my wife who loves me more than anything, my dog, my house, my friends and most important my family who i have to worry about... Even though i will think about u 10 times a day the rest of my life and will prob break down and cry like a baby when i have your first grandchild, I have slowly but surely started to get through this, it is gonna take a while but if i carry your words of wisdom and know u are right by my side anything is possible.. I love and miss u more than words can say...

Well mom, i sit here on this friday night, lost. Its been so tough for me latley just to put a smile on my face. With dad not having a job lifes hasnt been so good, austin seems to get further away from me and the rest of the family by the day, and just theres been so much drama all i can do is think of you and break down. I think of how amazing my life was with you here, how days going out grocery shopping and picking up a lunchable were the best days i could ever ask for. the days when i was sick, the only thing that would cure me was your love and being around you.The days i could come to you for anything, and youd always make it better. The days of being able to think of you without balling my eyes out :(. Some days its so tough to just get out of bed and make it to school. I hope that you can somehow make this easier, i havnt seen a sincere smile on dad in a while and i wish as much as i already cant bear the pain, i wish i could take all the pain he has, just to see him happy. I hope times change soon and you can pick dad and i back up and smarten austins but upp! I miss you mom, more then i ever thought a person could miss someone. Im glad that i know your up there looking down on me, and i love you, way beyond words can ever express

Adam-

 

I know times are really difficult but please know your mom is with you every step of your journey even though you can't see her she is there.  She loved you boys more than anything.  I an here if you need anything at all I love you and wish I could help take all of your pain away but I know that is not possible.  But I will try to help in any way I can.  Please let me know whatever you need whenever you need it.

 

Love You

Well mom, its been over three years, and after tomarrow im already gonna be a junior in highschool :/. Not a day goes by that i dont think of you and latly it seems as if not a night goes by i dont sit and bed and cry for you :(. I miss you so so so so much i cant even try to put it in words. This past month or two has been hell for me, problems with the one who has my heart who i wish you were here to meet, the troubles of trying to keep my grades up, the lonley emty feeling, and just the though of having no one anymore :(. Ive been talking to kory alot about all the good times we used to have and all the times we would think you were so mean yelling at us for this and that but now we relize why, to make us who we are today, great people.im still waiting for the day that this gets easier, and i dont see it ever coming. I know i havnt been up to see you in for what i believe has been over a year, and im sorry and i feel guilty for that but its so hard for me to do. I really have had a very tough time latly, ive felt so lonley and empty, and i know so much would be differnt if you were here. I still wake up some times believing your going to be at the table with my toaster stroddle or my bagel. Ive found my self just staring up at the sky trying to see you in the clouds alot latley. Well trying to get on a better note, last exams toamrrow, and then your bubba's gonna be a big junior! I got my class ring, i got my permit, and so much more has happened. I went to Nikki's senior prom and i wish you were there to see us, we looked amazing, i know you would of been proud of me. Well its about time i take a shower and get to studying. I miss you more and more everyday mom, i really hope things start getting better for me. I hope your having a blast up there! I see you everywhere i go mom, and i love you more then you would ever relize! It hurts that i only got to be with you for 13 years, but im glad you raised me how you did for those years! Thanks mom, once again i miss you so so so sos so os so so so muchhh and i love you! And dont worry, ill be up soon, and ill bring those pennies for kathy

Well mom im just sitting here, wishing I could go out to the living room right now to see you and get one of those goodnight hugs and kisses! Its been so long but definitely doesn’t feel like three years. Its hard to even think I’m 16 now and you passed right after I turned a teenager! It still hurts like it did the first night, I really want it to get better but I know it wont, I just miss you too much. Well I made the baseball team and we have just started having practices, first scrimmage Saturday, wish you were there, I know you will be with me no matter where I go but I just want to here that “Lets go bub” one more time! I got prom with Nikki coming up in May, hard to think that you wont be at those pictures either . Well I hope you and Kathy and great nonni are having a blast up there! I miss you so much mom, from the days you would stay home sick with me to the times we would just go grocery shopping together I see those pictures in my head all the time, you popping your gum in that bright green jacket you loved. I talked to nonni last night, she’s coming up this weekend. I like talking to her a lot now because its almost like its you in a way and it makes me really happy! I miss coming up stairs and seeing you sleeping on the couch and watching you “blow bubbles” . I just miss that awesome loving outgoing self of yours, there’s no one else around like you anymore unfortunately. I know you know but dads doing well, hasn’t had a steady job since you left us but ironic or not he just got his back tonight and im sure you had part in that! Well I cant see too much of the screen anymore so im going to end it here, I hope your having a good time in that happy place your in, and I am looking forward to the day god lets us meet again! I love you so so much mom and you know that will never ever change. I love you! Your baby