Well mah, tomarrow your baby boy turns 18! I cant belive, hard to believe im going on my 5th birthday without you. These past holidays were probly the hardest ones ive gone through. I dont know why but ive been thinking about you a ton lately. With austin being away amd the problems with ryan its been so hard. I hate being a person who keeps everything in because it makes me feel alone. I miss you so much mom! If only i could see you or talk to you one more time. Im so happy to have had you as a mother and i hope i grow up to make you proud! I love you so much mom. Keep austin safe<3
Christmas In Heaven
I see the countless Christmas trees, around the world below, With tiny lights, like heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow.
This sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear, For I am spending Christmas, with Jesus... Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs, that people hold so dear, But the sound of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here. For I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring, For it's beyond description to hear an angel sing.
I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart, But I am not so far away, we are really not apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones, you know I hold you dear, And be glad I'm spending Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.
I send you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above, I send you each a memory, of my undying love.
For after all "Love" is the gift, more precious than pure gold, It was always most important, in the stories Jesus told.
So please love and help each other, as my Father said to do, For I cannot count the blessings, or the love He has for you.
So have a Merry Christmas, and wipe away that tear, For I am spending Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.
I can't tell you of the splendor, or the peace here in this place, Can you imagine Christmas, with our Savior, face to face?
I'll ask Him to lift your spirit, as I tell Him of your love, So then pray for one another, as you lift your eyes above.
So please let your hearts be joyful, and let your spirits sing, For I am spending Christmas in heaven, and I'm walking with the King!
Aunt Lynne,
Gez.. i cant believe its already the 5th christmas since you have been gone. it seems like just yesterday dad was leaving me with you. i miss you so much and love you so much. there is not a day that goes by that i dont think of you. i know you would probally smack me for this one. but for my graduation present moms letting me get a tattoo and im getting it on my back it reminds me so much of you and its in memory of you. thank you for watching out for me aunt lynne. theres plenty of times i shouldnt of made it but yet you keep me here for a reason. You were such an amazing women. you have taught me so many lessons and shown me so many good things. You showed me the way of life and i truly cherish that. i appreciated everything you had ever done for me. im so sorry for not being able to see you before you left. it kills me every day but everyone decided it was best i stayed back. Just writing this makes me cry. i just wish you were here and i could just pick up the phone and called you when times get hard. i wish i could spend christmas with you. I wish you could watch your only niece graduate. i know you wish you were here to spend these times with all of us. just know you are never forgotten and even when the family is all together your presence is still there and will never fade. i love you always and forever! thanks for everything.
Love your favorite little niece,
Marissa :)
- posted a pic so you can see me now.
love you aunt lynne.
Ryan please call me it breaks my heart to see your post. You have done an amazing job of keeping everything together for everyone over the years. Time to make some time for yourself and actually grieve.
Mom,
I am sitting here crying i am beat down and broken!! I dont know what to do there is just so much shit that has happend in my life i dont know how to deal with it and i need u to help me!!! All i think about is u and coming to see u i am just not the person that everybody thinks i am!! I have alot of issues and i feel i have let so many people down i just feel like everything has fallen apart since u have left me!! i tried so hard to be strong i am just not strong anymore!!! i have so much anger and guilt and i feel like a piece of shit alot of it is my fault but alot of it isnt just nobody knows cause i keep it all to myself!! I will write more later just know that i love u more than words can say!!! Talk to u soon
