Lynne Marie Naehrig - Online Memorial Website

Well dear sister.....your Austin is now a husband..:)..I am so proud of him and all that he has accomplished in the last year, as i know you are. He really took charge of his life at the right time..with help from someone above..;)..I know it was hard for him to go and leave his brothers behind, but, they all know that he will be safe and return soon. I wish you could come home just one more time, so i could hug you...i miss you so much, and some days it's real hard not to cry. But, i know you are watching over all of us. I can't believe the 5 year mark is just around the corner...sometimes it seems like you just left us yesterday..:(...but, one day we will all be together again!! Still waiting for your first grandchild to come along....think maybe Austin and Catherine will beat Ryan and Toni...lol....well, have to get busy, you know what i have to get done...:)...love you more than words can say...always and forever...

Mom,

 

      Well here I am sitting here a few hours befor i leave for afganistan and i cant stop thinking about you and what you have to say!  I know you would be so proud of me and where I've gotten with what was handed to me!  I have a few favors to ask of you while im gone.  Please keep me and my buddies safe and just look out for adam and dad.  I could sit here for hours and write and write and write but i have to keep my mind on what lays ahead of me!  That being leaving tonight and doing my job and coming home safe!  I love you and miss you more than words can even begin to explain. 

 

                                               Love you,

                                                    Austin John

 

lynne..

 

i called you "aunt," although you are of no blood to me. i loved you, even though i can only recall seeing you once or twice. when everything was a mess over here and my parents were getting divorced, you were just a phone call away.. telling me to straighten up and be strong. im not sure how to feel right now as i sit and write this. i wonder if you are watching.. if you see the many people that love you soo much and come here to share with you a little peice of themselves. mostly, i feel horrible because i never had the chance to apologize. no one knows this but me and you and god. well.. not until now. there was a time where i felt you turned against me, against your brother, and "sided" with my mother. i felt like she had brainwashed you like she did so many other people. i trusted you and i confided in you things that only you and i will ever know, but then it seemed to change. im not blaming you AT ALL.. im just saying.. i dont know what im saying. i guess i want you to know that im sorry. like i said, i didnt know you well, but i knew you enough to see that you were a wonderful, loving, beautiful individual. you always sincerely cared about us, and that meant a lot when it felt like my own flesh and blood didnt give a crap. things were said back and forth, and then back and forth again through another person. we both know what im talking about. feelings were hurt, and people got defensive, and said things.. horrible things.. i cant even bear to think about it. lynne I LOVE YOU. i always loved you. i never would have said those things to you and about you had i known that would have been the last time i would ever talk to you again. im such a horrible person! im so, so sorry. did you leave us hating me, lynne? did you hang up the phone wishing you never would have tried to have a relationship with me? i hope not. i hope you dont hate me, but if you do i would understand. i never got to tell you that i loved you, and that i appreciated every single thing you ever did to help us. i feel silly typing this because im trying to fight back tears and i dont think i have the right or reason to be upset because its my fault you left us not knowing how i really felt.

 

i want you to know i love you, always and forever. and im sorry lynne.. so, so sorry.

I am sitting here tonight like everynight thinking of you I can't believe it is 4 years tommorow since I talked to you last and you talked back.  It is supposed to get easier but instead it gets harder and as more time passes I miss you more not less.  I would give anything for 4 more minutes with you, 4 more laughs, 4 more cries 4 more anything.  You would be so proud of the boys they are all so grown up and they are all turning out like you would have wanted.  They are "good" kids with big hearts and I see you in all of them.  They have not had it easy but like you always did they survive and aren't bitter.  I am bitter that you are gone won't get close to anyone I don''t want another buddy

Well, another Thanksgiving has come and gone with out you here...This one was bitter sweet for me, having all your boys here for the holiday!! I know you see Austin is having some trouble lately, but, i know he had your help in making the decisions he has made for his life. I talked with him at length tonight, and i know you would be proud of the Man he has grown to be. He like us all has had his trials and tribulations..but, he has worked thru them. I am so very proud of him, as i know you would be!! Time has seemed to put some distance between us all, but that is going to be like that no longer! So many things have been brought to my attension, and i am so sad to say that somethings, i can't do anything about. I know you see, and somethings have not turned out the way you would have expected, but, they will get better....I promise i will make sure of that.

 I miss you more than all the stars in the sky, but, being with your boys some how makes me feel like you are near. I now know why you never came to me and gave me the reassurance about that one subject that i asked you to help me with. Because, you knew that there was a problem with it...and once again..you were right! Hopefully, time and experiences will change that...but, i am not so hopeful!! I love you and miss you more than you will ever know sis, you always were here to help me with my numerous struggles. And you know there were MANY!! lol  Till the time we meet again...i will hold you in my heart and my memories....ALWAYS AND FOREVER....Me