Hey mom... i dont know where i should start.. its been over a year and a half noww and i still cant believe that your not here.. I miss you so muchhh.. i never knew that it would be this hard for so longg... Alot of things have happened sence you have been gonee.. I hit 2 homeruns this year and i know you were there for both of them.. I broke my finger playin soccer with your little mckayla.. Austin bought a quad.. I entered highschool... So much has been goin on, and i wish you were here for every little bit, i know you are but i wish you were here in person... I just want to be able to come to you when i have a problem, or just be able to get a hug and kiss goodnight, or to wake up to youu sitting at table saying goodmorning... Its been so hard mom and i miss you beond belief.. I hope your having a good life up in heaven... I miss you so much, and i love you mom.. Until next timee, keep thinking of me and the family
To My Dearest Sister: I can not even begin to explain the hurt I feel in my heart. I think about you every day,somedays more than others. When I left the hospital that night I thought, why her? She has so much to live for,a great husband and three of the most wonderful children there could ever be. When I found out that you died, I wanted to die myself. I thought, things like this don't happen in our family. But when mom almost died I guess reality set in. You were gone and I had no one. You were always the first person I called when ever something happened, and I couldn't call you. I could't hear you tell me "just hold it together and everything will be alright." Little did I know you did hear me. Someday when it's time we will meet in that field again.
I thank God everyday that our brother stepped in to cover for you. I don't think I would be able to deal with half of life if it weren't for him. You taught him very well. Even with all his problems, he still has time to tell me to hold in there. I couldn't have asked for a more wonderful brother.
I know that you were there on 7-7-07 to see your son get married. I felt you there, like you were standind right there beside Ryan holding his hand. How proud you must be of him. He married the most kindest and sweetest girl in the world, but you already knew that. When Ryan was standing up there, the only thing I could think of is when he was a baby. How I would spend every minute I could with you two and taking care of him. What a truly wonderful man you raised. Soon you will be a grandmother (right ry) and i could just imagine what that baby will look like. BEAUTIFUL.
So proud to have an ANGEL as wonderful as you watching over all of us. Until next time, Love you more than words.
ALWAYS,
Tree
well mom i dont know where to start!! I thought by now i would be over this but not a day go's by that i dont think of u or shed a tear!! I tell everyone that i am fine but i am not even close!! I still havent sat down and actually tried to get over the fact that u are gone i just either havent had time or just dont want to!!! U will never be gone in my eyes u will always be here in mind, spirit, and my heart!! I still dont know how i have continued on in this shithole they call earth without u!! Well i do know thats why i married her!!
And on to that day it was prob the best day of my life other than my 2 bros being born marrying toni was the best!! She has somewhat filled in your shoes well to be honest she has filled one of them dont think she will fill the other until we have your first grandchild because i know she will be a mother like u were and hopefully i will be the father that dad is!! I just cant believe that my wedding has come and gone u would of been so proud of me i was calm and relaxed i would like to believe that u were inside me at that moment!! And i still did the mother son dance although i threw a twist on it and all 3 your boys danced and we danced to our song " SIMPLE MAN" the song we were supposed to dance to!!!
well anyway i know today is your bday so happy bday!! And i am sorry i cant go see u i wont handle myself!! I love u more than words can say and miss u more than anything!! well i will talk to u later
Love u mom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey Mom, I just wanted to let some stuff out and let you know how I am doing. I know you would be proud of me and that’s why I always keep my head up. My grades were not the best this year but I still have never gotten a F. I went to class night this year all dressed up I know you would of loved to see me in my nice suit. I am playing for Valley Park again this year and I always look out to the score board that we dedicated for you when I am pitching and it makes me feel that your right there in the stands with dad cheering me on. Also I am playing summer basketball. I just got home from my first day of weight training for high school football.. I know that you never really liked football but I still know your going to be there for me 100 percent because that’s how you always were. You were so amazing and you were always behind me and my brothers no matter what we did as long as we liked it and it kept us out of trouble. My one year is coming up with my girlfriend Nikki, you would of loved her I know you would of she’s a good girl. I really wish you were still here but I know you are in my heart.. I have to go now but I’m sure ill be back here sooner or later. Until then I miss you and I love you mom.
Mom,
Just thought I would stop by and say a few things. I’ve been thinking off you a lot lately. I really think you would be one proud lady right now. I just graduated on Sunday and although I know you weren’t there physically I know you were waking right beside me as i crossed that stage. I want to thank you again for being all that you were for me.
I’ll be back to write more later when I have some more time
Love you, Miss you
Love,
Austin john
